Life can seem unbearable at times, but don't let it keep you down. Meditate on God's goodness, talk to Him, and know that He hears you. When life knocks you to your knees, you're in a good position to pray.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Again?
Ang weird talaga...
I woke up earlier today. Wasn't able to sleep anymore when I was woke up by a call from HSBC. I suddenly felt the heat and so I transferred to the air conditioned room of our father and mother but I didn't feel like sleeping anymore. Still, I feel I should get some more. I'll try to catch some a little later. I just decided to put this in writing right away.
Ang weird talaga. I can't help but wonder why is this happening. What a coincidence talaga. Kahapon I just wrote about the comment made by Tita Ava when we had a little chat and now, the same comment was made, this time by cousin Ate Genelyn.
Napanaginipan kita may asawa ka na raw golde... (9:11 am)
Kailan k b mag aasawa yan bka maunahan k pa ni dhea yan. (9:12 am)
Those were the exact text messages I received. Kumusta naman yun diba? Talagang she bothered to text me pa just to tell me about the dream lang. I imagined, siguro it was so vivid that it looked like real then she texted because she still can't forget about it. I was able to read this in the afternoon na. Around 2pm, medyo naalimpungatan lang ako and I decided to check the messages in my cellphone. At yan nga ang nakita ko. Hindi ko pa alam nung una kung sino yun kasi bagong number na gamit nya.
But what surprises me the most is the happening of the same thing in 2 consecutive days, involving 2 different people who I didn't have the chance to be with physically for a long time. All of a sudden they were checking on me when it's not really their nature to bother about me. Not that they don't care but we're not that close either.
Ang weird talaga. I don't know what this means, but whatever is the meaning of the things that are happening right now, I just entrust everything to the Lord. I might just get crazy trying to figure out what's the meaning of all these. Basta, I'll continue to do my part. Trust in the Lord and have faith in Him while doing the things I have to do.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not in your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight. -Proverbs 3:5-6
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. -Hebrews 11:1
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
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Just had a chat with my aunt a few minutes ago when I answered the phone. She was looking for my sis but since we haven't spoken for a while, she asked how I was.
She said I sounded like I'm sad. I said maybe it was because I just got up. I really haven't had a decent sleep today. I slept late, and I felt like my sleep was shallow. Like I wasn't even able to rest. I didn't feel recharged when I woke up. This is what's difficult when you're in graveyard shift. It's really hard to get sleep in the morning. I've been working like this for more than 3 years now and yet my body's still having difficulty in adjusting.
So the conversation went like she's wondering how I'm doing with the graveyard shift. Her voice reflected dislike on the idea of working at night. Well, everyone knows how hard it is to work in the graveyard shift and she expressed how concerned she was with how I'm doing with my job. I just said, I already got used to it.
Tapos sabay banat na papa-sponsor daw anak nya sa youth camp. Sus, mayaman pa nga sila sa 'min. Sabi ko na lang, madami akong bayarin.
Then she commented, parang pamilyado ah. Maigi pa mag-asawa ka na. Kelan ka pa mag-aasawa? Kapag huli na? These are not really the exact words. Rephrased na yan. What she exactly said was a little crude because she was trying to deliver it in a joking manner. It's one of those totoong biro.
I'm 25, approaching my 26th birthday in a few months time. How time flies. I haven't even realized that I've spent 3 and half years already being in the entry level position. I enjoyed what I've been doing so much that I already missed out the opportunities to move up. Now I'm actually having a struggle career-wise because of that. Pati naman ang lovelife, dumagdag pang isipin dahil sa comment ng tita ko.
I'm not really bothering myself that much of the marriage thing, but I won't deny the fact that it sometimes make me contemplate. My aunt made that comment because during their time, marrying young is ideal. I know she's also concerned I might become a spinster, for it somewhat runs in the family. Not really in theirs, she's the sister of my father and all of them are already married and she's the youngest. Sa side ng pamilya nila, they have cousins that are still single beyond the usual age of marrying. I know, she's afraid that I might grow old alone, but I don't want to be marrying naman just for the sake of that. Sino naman ang papakasalan ko? Wala nga kong boyfriend at this time eh.
Don't ask me why. Hindi ko din alam kung bakit. As much I would like myself to not think about it, the fact that I'm not getting any younger makes me think of it. Ewan ko.
I just noticed that my post is getting long. I haven't written all of my thoughts yet, but I really intended to have this post to be only composed of a few paragraphs with few sentences. Turned out it's not.
I'll get back to this some other time. I still have devotion to do.
Ngayon ko lang napansin na hindi na pala ko masyadong nagbblog. Ang tindi ba? Sobrang ka-busy-han, ni hindi ko manlang naisip na may blog pala ko.
I actually have a lot of blogs. And even during the times I was not updating this, I even created new blogs in some sites that offer free online journal service. Paano kasi, blocked itong blogger sa office. Now, I have found a way again to access restricted sites from the office and I might as well take advantage of the situation. Kaya lang naman, ano namang isusulat ko?
I've lost my passion in writing. And I think even in reading. Reading just became a habit now. Most of the time now, I read not because I want to, but because I have to. Afterall, we can't deny the fact that we learn a lot from reading. It's part of life.
Kita ko, last update ko was when I was planning pa to get a new digicam. Well, I actually did get it already and have already used it a lot of times. It's so handy that I don't mind even if I leave it in my bag. Halos kasing laki lang sya ng phone ko, which is a N7610, and I haven't minded carrying it everytime I need to bring a camera, not even on an ordinary day na mapag-tripan ko lang magdala, unlike my old Canon Powershot A510 na kahit kailangan ko na syang dalhin, tamad na tamad talaga ko kasi ang bigat! It's still incomparable though with my old Canon when it comes to picture quality, kahit na 3.2 megapixel lang yung Canon ko at 7 megapixel itong bago ko.
Sa ngayon, yun na lang muna. I am currently working on making my devotion a habit (again).
I don't intend this to be my life's chronicles but I might write some of my experiences here.
Even so, everything that's written in here are either products of my excessive contemplation, or just plainly, pure boredom.
In any case, I still try to write as sensible as possible, for what I really intend to do and I hope is achieved in every writing,
is to impart or share some of the things I learn and sometimes, some struggles in life. Don't expect all seriousness in everything in here though.
In short, this blog is my outlet. My noted thoughts and reflections.
About Me
Name: Goldi
Home: Pasay City, Philippines
Birthday: June 2
Hobbies & Interests: Jesus, music, books, journals, internet, computers, tech stuff, gadgets * sound tripping, singing, playing musical instruments (I know guitar and flute recorder, I just wish I can play them well), watching movie with a tub of popcorn drizzled with melted butter (yum!), reading * observing, pondering, reflecting, learning * laughing or making people laugh (though I'm not good at it) and laugh with them, make people smile, or just listen to their stories. Minsan, trip ko lang din mang-asar =p
About Me: I'm a simple, idealistic but down-to-earth, & friendly person. Quiet most of the time, but friendly enough to have a nice talk (or even a hearty laugh) with anyone. "I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. So I live my life in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 NLT
Principles I live by:
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4
"If people talk negatively about you, live in such a way that no one will believe them."
"God is a God of happy endings. If you're not yet happy, it's not yet the end."
"It's not what we know but what we do that counts." -Our Daily Bread
"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." -Dumbledore, Harry Potter 2
"Girls should assume that until a guy expresses interest, they're just friends." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl
"True love doesn't just wait; it plans." -Boy Meets Girl
"Eros will have naked bodies; friendship naked personalities." -C.S. Lewis
"Ideals are like stars; we will not succeed in touching them with our hands but by following them, as the sea faring man in the ocean, we will reach our destiny." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl
