.:: Goldi's Noted Thoughts ::.
Sometimes I believe all the lies
so I can do the things I should despise.
And everyday I am swayed
by whatever is on my mind.

I hear it all depends on my faith
so I'm feeling precarious.
The only problem I have with these
mysteries is they're so mysterious.

And like a consumer I've been thinkin'
if I could just get a bit more...
More than my fifteen minutes of faith,
Then I'd be secure...

My faith is like shifting sand,
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace...
Stand on grace.

I begged You for some proof
for my Thomas eyes to see.
A slithering staff, a leprous hand,
and lions resting lazily.

A glimpse of Your backside glory
on this soaked altar going ablaze.
But You know I've seen so much,
I explained it away...

My faith is like shifting sand
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace

Waters rose as my doubts reign
My sand castle faith have slipped away
I found myself standing on Your grace
It'd been there all the time

My faith is like shifting sand
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace...
Stand on grace.

Life can seem unbearable at times, but don't let it keep you down. Meditate on God's goodness, talk to Him, and know that He hears you. When life knocks you to your knees, you're in a good position to pray.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
"Ex"

This is such a weird feeling. I just opened my friendster profile this morning through my ipod touch while lying in bed to just check for some new message or comment, and seeing that I've had like 143 views (found it weird), I checked who are those people who took a peep in my profile. There, I saw someone so unexpected. And I'm not able to describe how I felt when I saw it.

Was planning pa nga to do the blogging through the touch kaso medyo mahirap, so I got up pa just to have a record of this unusual event and feeling.

So ano muna yung nakita ko? Well... and "ex" ko lang naman. It was weird because I know, he used to view profiles anonymously, but now it's shown. And another thing that I know someday will happen but still it surprised me is that, bago na ang status nya. Hindi na single, hindi na it's complicated. In a relationship na. And his primary pic? Kasama nya yung girl.

I am not in the mood to go into details na about this weird feeling. Anyway, I can't describe it. I might be writing about it some other time. I just probably want to keep a record of this sudden surge of indescribable emotion. But I'm perfectly fine.

Maybe I felt a little envious because he has already found his new companion. Just maybe. Because maybe I just don't want to admit it to myself. I suddenly felt like I've lost in a competition. But before any of you my friends there react to what I've just mentioned, I want you to know that I completely know I shouldn't be feeling like this. But I was just being real. I was just saying what I feel but I'm not doing anything to nurse it so no harm done, okay?

For some part of me, I am happy for him. No pretentions, or bitterness, whatsoever. What I've just said is genuinely meant. And I wish them both happiness. I wish that the guy who once was very special to me has become a better person. A better man. And in that case, the girl is really blessed. Since this is a wish, I wouldn't be looking in its opposite side. I want to think they will have a happily ever after story.

Pero hindi ko na iwwish na makita na wedding pics naman ang sunod na makita ko no. Unless I have mine posted first. Hehehe.

posted by goldiqt @ 5:54 AM
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I don't intend this to be my life's chronicles but I might write some of my experiences here. Even so, everything that's written in here are either products of my excessive contemplation, or just plainly, pure boredom. In any case, I still try to write as sensible as possible, for what I really intend to do and I hope is achieved in every writing, is to impart or share some of the things I learn and sometimes, some struggles in life. Don't expect all seriousness in everything in here though.

In short, this blog is my outlet. My noted thoughts and reflections.

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Name: Goldi

Home: Pasay City, Philippines

Birthday: June 2

Hobbies & Interests: Jesus, music, books, journals, internet, computers, tech stuff, gadgets * sound tripping, singing, playing musical instruments (I know guitar and flute recorder, I just wish I can play them well), watching movie with a tub of popcorn drizzled with melted butter (yum!), reading * observing, pondering, reflecting, learning * laughing or making people laugh (though I'm not good at it) and laugh with them, make people smile, or just listen to their stories. Minsan, trip ko lang din mang-asar =p

About Me: I'm a simple, idealistic but down-to-earth, & friendly person. Quiet most of the time, but friendly enough to have a nice talk (or even a hearty laugh) with anyone. "I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. So I live my life in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 NLT

Principles I live by:

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4

"If people talk negatively about you, live in such a way that no one will believe them."

"God is a God of happy endings. If you're not yet happy, it's not yet the end."

"It's not what we know but what we do that counts." -Our Daily Bread

"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." -Dumbledore, Harry Potter 2

"Girls should assume that until a guy expresses interest, they're just friends." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl

"True love doesn't just wait; it plans." -Boy Meets Girl

"Eros will have naked bodies; friendship naked personalities." -C.S. Lewis

"Ideals are like stars; we will not succeed in touching them with our hands but by following them, as the sea faring man in the ocean, we will reach our destiny." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl

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