Life can seem unbearable at times, but don't let it keep you down. Meditate on God's goodness, talk to Him, and know that He hears you. When life knocks you to your knees, you're in a good position to pray.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Masarap Kumain
I am taking again that chinese medicine, Ling Zhi Zuang Yao Wan (I don't know if that's spelled right), as an apettite stimulant. I really have no plans of taking it again, if not for the request of my younger sis to split the bill with her. A bottle of 50 caps costs 400 pesos and since she wants to take it but has no money enough to buy a bottle, she decided to share it with me.
We are a family of slim types, the types that no matter how much we eat, we don't get fat. It actually sounds great to those who doesn't want to gain weight while getting to eat all the nicely, even the sinfully (fattening or unhealthy) delicious food but to us it has become a slight problem. Yes we don't get fat, but we loose pounds and become underweight so easily, which makes us slimmer. And because we're so slim (read: thin), it sometimes is difficult for us to shop for clothes that would fit us well, and we look like walking sticks.
I'm actually the thinnest among my sisters, that's why even if I'm the eldest, people think I'm the youngest because I'm not only slim, but petite. I am not really a picky eater and I don't eat like a bird either, but it seems like the foods I'm eating are getting nowhere, no matter how much food I take. I was even investing my money on food, not depriving myself whenever I want to eat something just to make myself plumper but it looks like it's all wasted.
My sister and I are currently into this weight gaining program because we've been losing it because of stress. Me because of the graveyard shift and lack of sleep, and it's the same for her, except that it's because she's currently taking her law proper, causing her to stay up all night. I'm currently in the transition of getting a morning shift, thank God that one has been vacated so I'd finally get to live a normal life. That's why I don't really need the medicine but I decided to take it anyway to help my sister and to speed up my process of gaining weight a little.
I've taken it before and though I've become a little plumper (they say I looked like a siopao then), not much weight was gained. I'm not very happy with the results for zits have also sprouted in my back and in my forehead. And to make it worse, I was only getting plumper on parts that should not be plump, like my tummy and my cheeks. It looked like I always have candy on both sides of my cheeks and it doesn't look any good coz my face looks fatter than my body. It didn't make much difference in my arms and legs, the parts that I want to become fleshy. The gain is not proportion. That's why I was also hesitant in taking it at first. But my sis says it works fine with her, because she've been taking it since I introduced her the med (that was the last quarter of 2004 yata). It had the same effect to her as well but it eventually became okay. I think it might be just the initial reaction of the body, I don't know. She's now only taking it as a food supplement, to help maintain her appetite, or to bring it back in case it's lost, she might just have to increase the dosage.
So I've decided to take it again but I cut the dosage into half, taking only one cap a day. That's actually already enough. The bottle says to take one cap twice a day. The first time I tried it, I was eating like there's no tomorrow on the second day pa lang. I eat to the point that I already can't breathe, and I can't move anymore because of my bulging tummy, but the craving still doesn't stop. It's like torture, you know? Not only to my body but to my pocket as well. My friend who recommended it to me said that dosage should be reduced into half once you're already eating like a giant.
As I've said, I'm now taking it once a day and I've felt the gluttony (hehehe) on the second day alone. Malakas ang epekto ng gamot sa 'kin so I don't really need to take it as perscribed in the label. Another thing, I can control the effect, like if it's not enough, just increase the dosage. One cap a day works fine, and I'm on my 7th day na yata. Since then, I've been eating again like a hobbit, having several meals in one day. Maya't maya may kinakain ako, and I can't sleep without having a midnight snack. So far, no zits have sprouted, though I have one right now but I take it as a sign that I'm going to have my period soon. It actually used to be like a bad case of acne, but I did not develop any right now. Talaga lang yatang unang lalaki ang tyan kapag malakas ka kumain. I'm now complaining because I can feel my tummy when I sit, and it's uncomfy. I feel like my tummy's being stretched too much that I'm afraid it would stay like that. This calls then for an exercise.
The results I'm expecting are slowly becoming obvious now. I just hope I won't come to a point that I'd look like a siopao again. But so far, I'm liking the results, except for the bulging tummy. I'm now planning of squeezing an excercise routine into my schedule, probably badminton or taekwondo after my shift. Sana lang hindi ito hanggang plano lang 'no.
I don't intend this to be my life's chronicles but I might write some of my experiences here.
Even so, everything that's written in here are either products of my excessive contemplation, or just plainly, pure boredom.
In any case, I still try to write as sensible as possible, for what I really intend to do and I hope is achieved in every writing,
is to impart or share some of the things I learn and sometimes, some struggles in life. Don't expect all seriousness in everything in here though.
In short, this blog is my outlet. My noted thoughts and reflections.
About Me
Name: Goldi
Home: Pasay City, Philippines
Birthday: June 2
Hobbies & Interests: Jesus, music, books, journals, internet, computers, tech stuff, gadgets * sound tripping, singing, playing musical instruments (I know guitar and flute recorder, I just wish I can play them well), watching movie with a tub of popcorn drizzled with melted butter (yum!), reading * observing, pondering, reflecting, learning * laughing or making people laugh (though I'm not good at it) and laugh with them, make people smile, or just listen to their stories. Minsan, trip ko lang din mang-asar =p
About Me: I'm a simple, idealistic but down-to-earth, & friendly person. Quiet most of the time, but friendly enough to have a nice talk (or even a hearty laugh) with anyone. "I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. So I live my life in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 NLT
Principles I live by:
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4
"If people talk negatively about you, live in such a way that no one will believe them."
"God is a God of happy endings. If you're not yet happy, it's not yet the end."
"It's not what we know but what we do that counts." -Our Daily Bread
"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." -Dumbledore, Harry Potter 2
"Girls should assume that until a guy expresses interest, they're just friends." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl
"True love doesn't just wait; it plans." -Boy Meets Girl
"Eros will have naked bodies; friendship naked personalities." -C.S. Lewis
"Ideals are like stars; we will not succeed in touching them with our hands but by following them, as the sea faring man in the ocean, we will reach our destiny." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl
I am taking again that chinese medicine, Ling Zhi Zuang Yao Wan (I don't know if that's spelled right), as an apettite stimulant. I really have no plans of taking it again, if not for the request of my younger sis to split the bill with her. A bottle of 50 caps costs 400 pesos and since she wants to take it but has no money enough to buy a bottle, she decided to share it with me.
