Life can seem unbearable at times, but don't let it keep you down. Meditate on God's goodness, talk to Him, and know that He hears you. When life knocks you to your knees, you're in a good position to pray.
Friday, October 29, 2004
Isa Pa
Well, maybe the reason why I have set my mind to put God first in my thoughts today (sadly, I don't always do that), is because of the thought that I will be meeting with my cell group again tomorrow and so I have to prepare the topic we're going to talk about.
Naalala ko nga pala, I forgot to attend our mentoring program last monday. I wonder what they said when I didn't come.. panigurado, sabon ako neto.
I am so much inspired by the blog of this Malaysian girl residing in Australia, that I like my blog to be like hers. You can go to her blog and check it out by clicking here. I love how this girl writes about her life, and her Christian life as well. She writes so well, and most of her posts are sensible. I'm amazed because this girl is a year younger than me. She has gone way too far though (so of course, I won't be able to catch up with her). She has been blogging since the January 2004.
Ako, I just developed this interest in blogging when I saw Jo (my officemate, who is also the assistant director pala of Bubble Gang. I just knew that after a year) making a blog entry. I've been noticing her doing that often, but I just ignored it kasi nga, I'm not interested. Eh she always does that like her day won't be complete without writing something in her blog and so I asked, "ano ba yan? mukhang masaya yan ah. dali lang ba yan?". Eh, since medyo wala kong magawa nung mga panahong yun, ayun, I signed up for blogger. Kaya heto, me blog na ko ngayon. :D
Paiba iba pa nga ko ng template dati. Jo was teasing me because I'm not writing anything in my blog. Eh pano, masyado akong nalulong sa kakahanap ng design na maganda sa blog ko, I forgot the real essence of blog na. hahaha! Parang, I just had a blog to practice html chuvaness, hindi ko naman nilalagyan ng entry.
Well, ngayon nman, I'm already satisfied with the way this blog looks (decided to keep it simple kasi, kakasawa yung masyadong magarbo) kaya ngayon, nakakapagsulat na ko ng entry.
Jen, if you happen to read this entry, I am so sorry if you can't understand some because it is written in tagalog, our native language. I can't express myself too much in english. I am happy though that you take time to read my entries. But of course, I will try my best to have all my writings in english, afterall, it also works to my own advantage. Being able to communicate in english is a big plus.
I have been pre-occupied of thinking how I can share God's love to other people today. I don't know why. I just have my mind set to put God first in my thoughts everyday. That's not quite easy to do, specially if you'll be thinking of all the worries you have for the day. Coming to work again, dealing with your clients, dealing with your co-workers, what you're going to eat, what are you going to do, stuffs like that. We have been bombarded with a lot of things to do in our everyday life (not to mention the recreations we plan to do, or just plainly thinking of the show we're going to watch when we get home).
I don't really want to sound like I'm preaching (though reading some of my previous posts, I think I almost sound like I do), but I'm just putting what I'm feeling into writing. I don't mind it, this is my blog. I can write anything I want in here, eh? And besides, I'm telling it to myself, I just had it published online.
Yaiks.. I forgot what I want to say... will just continue this one as soon as I gathered my thoughts (ohohoho).
I remember one time when I was still teaching in our Sunday School class (I miss those days), we have this lesson about being patient and loving. I have studied and internalized the lesson the night before, so I was mentally and emotionally prepared to impart it to my students that Sunday morning. Just as I am about to enter the church, I saw my dear sister (she went there earlier because she has to prepare something) wearing my newly bought blouse (and that is my favorite, the one I have saved my allowance for), and wham! I snapped at her, and before I can think, I've committed the very transgression I'll be teaching against.
It seems that whenever we start to work on improving some aspect of our lives (specially spiritual), like being more patient and loving, or just plainly controlling our tongue, Satan tries to get us to stumble in the very area we've been working on, and he often succeeds in discouraging us.
Maybe it's better to view it as a test that is really intended to strengthen us. But of course, our own strengths wouldn't be enough to overcome such little discouragements (but is very effective in tearing us down). Our best action would still be to call on the Lord and ask for help. Remember, the Lord can only become strong in our lives when we allow Him to be (we have free will guys)... and that is when we admit we are weak.
Loving---really loving---is easier to talk about than to accomplish. But with Jesus on our side, we can sincerely do it... even if it is with our darling sister.
I have been thinking of what I will write in this blog (as always) since my last entry. Well actually, I won't be thinking this hard if I haven't decided to write all my entries in english. I am not really that used to the language, but since I found out that some people of not the same mother tongue as mine is reading my blog (thanks for visiting :)), I've decided to write in english so they can also understand. Actually, I don't really have this aim of sharing something notable because this blog might contain mostly rants about life, but I will always try to find God's guidance in all my dealings so some people can connect with mine, and share their own point of view.
While I was fixing up my old things, I saw my Prayer Journal. I decided to turn some of its pages and read my entries. It was my journal when i was in college. Browsing through, I found out that in spite of the busy-ness of my school life then, I still find time to write there, because that's where I talk to God. I made it up so I won't fall asleep while praying. I so much love writing before and so I devised a way on how I can do the praying and at the same time, enjoy what I do. Boy, I miss those days! Compared to how I am doing right now with my communication with God? I am trying to get that habit back right now, but I'm still having difficulty.
It also made me see how I am doing as a Christian during my school years. I can say my thoughts are so immature, like a kid always asking for his dad of something, and then after that, just forgetting about it without appreciation. I so much look like someone who's asking his father because that's what his father ought to do, like some sort of an obligation.
Now I have grown that out (I think), though sometimes because of selfishness, even grown ups still have that way of thinking. We always ask, we always pray that God give us this and that, never thinking that God wants to hear more than our daily needs.
Have you ever been in a situation where you have this so much loved person, but he only talks to you whenever he needs something? Whenever he has a problem? And then when everything's going fine and smooth, forgets you like you don't exist? And then when something goes wrong, he sometimes even blame for not doing anything about your problem? If you know how that feels, believe it or not, that's how God feels when we only come to Him to ask our needs, like He's an ATM machine.
I am not really saying that it is bad to ask and ask. God knows we need Him and He also loves it when we ask him what we need, like how a father feels when his son or daughter would come to him and ask sweetly of something they want. What I'm trying to point out is, are we thanking Him if we have an answered prayer? Like us, God wants to hear our little "thank you's" or some words of appreciation if he accomplishes something we have asked, even if it's only equal to a candy.
Time to say thanks to God... and praise Him for all He has done.
Like now.. I'm thankful I can still use the internet, and publish my thoughts.
Ano ba to.. ang hirap huminga.. sobrang laki na ng tyan ko (I think). Kasi naman, simula nang inumin ko yung vitamins na yun, kain ako ng kain,kahit bondat na ko. Okay sana, kasi gusto kong tumaba(sobrang payat ko na kaya no), kaya lang, masyado namang pahirap sa kin to. Hindi na nga ko makahinga sa kabusugan, ayaw pa rin tumigil sa kakakain. Puro heavy pa ha! Malamang, in 2 or 3 weeks, magmumukha na kong siopao nito. Pati pera ko, ubos na sa kabibili ko ng pagkain everytime na magugutom ako.
Ngayon lang naman to eh. Pag nagkalaman naman ako ng konti, ititigil ko na rin, or yung parang supplement na lng para ma-maintain. Sa mga payatot dyan na nag-aasam tumaba, baka napapaisip kayo kung anong iniinom ko. I'll share you my secret. Ang pangalan nung med eh "Ling Zhi Chuang Yao Wan". Oh ha! Naging intsik ba kayo? hehehe.. Sinabi lang yan sa kin ni Arlene eh. Mga 2 days ko pa lang sya iniinom, pero in fairness, kita mo na agad ang epekto. Kaso nga, hindi na ko makahinga...
I think I want to have this book. Malapit na ang Christmas! ehehehe... :P
Are you guarding your heart against lust?
Lust isn't just a guy problem--it's a human problem. And unless we're willing to honestly confront it, lust will destroy our relationships and our lives. Joshua Harris, author of the runaway bestseller I Kissed Dating Goodbye, isn't afraid to tackle a subject many keep quiet. In Not Even a Hint, he calls a generation bombarded with pornography and images of sexual sin back to God's standards and the freedom and joy of holiness.
Straightforward about sexual sin without being graphic, this "PG-rated" book will speak to the person deeply entrenched in lust, as well as to those just flirting with temptation. Honestly sharing his own struggles, Harris exposes the tactics of lust in the heart and shows how to create a personal and practical plan for fighting back. Men and women will find hope in God's grace and learn the secrets to lasting change.
If you're planning to give (me) a gift, a good book would be the best. ;)
Paano, nakakainis. It was just supposed to be a trim and now what? My hair is only half as long as it is before.
Eto pa. I went to a dental clinic in Baclaran and lined up with their long line of customers. I signed something that looks like a log card? (yeah, whatever), and then picked up a magazine while waiting for my turn. Ngapala, I went there to have a filling (pasta).
After probably 2 years? (okay, that's an overstatement, 2 hours.. lang???).. yeah! that long! I finally decided to check it with the person in the reception. It was only then that I found out that they have forgotten about me. Sabi ko, "excuse me po, matagal pa po ba?" Sabi nya, "sunod sunod nman yan eh", then she showed me the cards that were arranged according to who's gone first. Hay naku, to my surprise, my card was not there! Pag minamalas ka nman talaga oh... Sabi ko, "Eh wala nman po yung card ko dito ah?"
Eh ano pa nga ba? I waited that long for nothing? Inalisan ko na lng, sabi ko babalik na lng ako someday. Saka, okay lng nman dahil nung naririnig ko yung ikot nung mga parang drill sa ipin, nangingilo ko.
After nyan, punta ko ng parlor, and had my hair cut. And yun nga, after ng hair cut, sambakol ang mukha ko. But I still managed to give the cutter a P10 tip. Maganda nman yung gupit nya eh. Sabi nga lng nya, bagay sa kin, but it turned out to be something I don't really like. I just wished I did not have it cut. Wala na, nagupit na eh.
Maybe this is just not my lucky day.
Anyway, I'm still thankful to God. I don't know why, pero I'm not really feeling so bad today. These are just half of the things that didn't turned out right, pero... ok pa rin. At least, buhay pa rin ako ngayon.. at nakakapag-internet pa ko.
I'm currently reading the book "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Joshua Harris nga pala. I dunno, pero parang may nagsasabi sa kin na I should read the book. Eh tutal, I'm fond of books nman eh, why don't I give it a try? So, I bought it. I haven't gone that far pa, but I will surely share what I have read, in here. Mukhang maganda eh.. basta.
yun. wala lang.
currently reading:
(click the picture to read the summary of the book)
Ha! Sa wakas at natapos din ako! yahoo! Well, wish ko lng. :D
Kasi nman po, hindi na ko nakuntento sa itsura ng blog ko. Lagi na lng akong nagpapalit ng layout. Ginagawa ko na nga lng atang praktisan ng html & java tong blog eh. hehehe... pero madami nman akong natutuhan. :)
I got the layout at templates by marina template shop. Sa mga nakakakita nman ng lips and heart na sumusunod sunod sa mouse, that's courtesy of darwin, naghanap sya ng script para dun, at presto! maganda na ang blog ko! hahahaha!!! ang saya saya no? icevah? ;)
so, ang gagawin ko na lng sa mga susunod na araw eh ang magsulat ng mga kung ano anong papasok sa kukote ko.. yun eh kung me papasok. :p
salamat sa mga naglaan ng oras para tingnan ang aking humble blog!
Something is holding you back. You are a caring person with lots to offer but for some reason you are afraid to let go. Everyone needs love and you are no exception so don't be scared to take the plunge. Come on you know you want to.
Basically, you're brave, daring, chivalrous, and pretty much.. an all around good person. Of course, some see you as a goodie-two-shoes. But hey, it's true! You're really good at winning, and normally always come out as the hero. Everybody likes you.. except, maybe, the Slytherins. You're too perfect. No, really.. You're too perfect. It's annoying to watch you win, repeatedly. Oh well. Be proud anyway.
Gryffindors to Remember:
Harry Potter
Ron Weasley
The whole Weasley family
Hermione Granger
Albus Dumbledore
uhm.. hey, you might think this is a sorcerer's stuff, but I just did it for fun. It doesn't say anything about witchcraft, aight?
Lord you know my heart
And all my desires
And the secret things I'll never tell
Lord, you know them well
Though I may be young
I see and understand
That at times like sheep we go astray
And things get out of hand
So I promise to be true to You
To live my life in purity as unto You
Waiting for the day when I hear you say
Here is the one I have created just for you
Until then, Oh Lord
I will be content
Knowing that true love will come someday
It'll only come from You
'Cause I have seen the suffering
That loneliness can cause
When we choose to give our love away
Without a righteous cause
So I promise to be true to You
To live my life in purity as unto You
Waiting for the day when I hear you say
Here is the one I have created just for you
I've taken some quiz at quizilla.com (la lang, trip), and here's what I got.. I just don't know if they are all true kasi, those people around me are only the ones who can tell if some of the results here are true. anyway.. here it goes..
Congrats! You're a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most of them go, all are compatible creatures, but Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure Angels always appear when a child is born, when a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their first kiss. They never grow old, and can appear in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold wings. Pure angels are the carriers of God, and show their love to everyone in the world.
You're like an angel. As everyone knows, angels dwell in heaven. They were desribed as shining ones wearing white and the idea that they have wings is believed as well. Guardian angels are the ones that many people think are dead loved ones who try to protect the living friends or family they have on Earth. They usually have blonde hair and maybe brown with flawless appearance and sweet dispositions. They were cheerful, hopeful, selfless, loving, and kind. Angels are the one mystical creature that a majority of people truly believe in. Encounters with angels are poping up all over the world and reassuring people's beliefs in angels.
::my say::
huh?! angel na naman? wala eh. ganun talaga.
You are the most important person in his life. He would do anything to see you smile. Actually, he would be the PERFECT boyfriend. Always getting lost in your eyes, always treating you like a princess and always saying a joke to make you laugh your head off while he smiles at your hysteric laughter. Yup, he is the person you were destined to fall in love with.
::my say::
well, not bad. But actually, hindi nman ako talaga naghahanap ng ganito, pero ok na ok kung ganito nga magiging bf ko. hihihi..
Your beauty is sweet! You are so incredibly adorable that people love to saw how cute you look. Beauty like yours can be characterized as youthfullness. You probably look very young or maybe even younger than you actually are. Your a very timid person some of the time.
::my say::
oh? talaga lang huh??? hehehe.. liked it.
oh! I think there's something wrong! I think I should write it as "dear blog".
Anyway, here it goes...
Dear Blog,
Hello there. What a lovely day today (as what the the Lord always does). haaay... He never fails to amaze me. Anyway, I was just goofing around. hehehehe... I still can't think of anything to write, kaya, ganito ganito na lng muna. hehehe...
yahoo!!! i am so happy about the new look of my blog.. hope you like it. :)
I still have a lot of editing to do.. I'm not yet satisfied pa.. hindi pa sya ganun kalinis eh. di ko pa achieve yung gusto kong look.. but i'm close to it! yehey!!!
Thank you Lord for everything! I love you so much!
I don't intend this to be my life's chronicles but I might write some of my experiences here.
Even so, everything that's written in here are either products of my excessive contemplation, or just plainly, pure boredom.
In any case, I still try to write as sensible as possible, for what I really intend to do and I hope is achieved in every writing,
is to impart or share some of the things I learn and sometimes, some struggles in life. Don't expect all seriousness in everything in here though.
In short, this blog is my outlet. My noted thoughts and reflections.
About Me
Name: Goldi
Home: Pasay City, Philippines
Birthday: June 2
Hobbies & Interests: Jesus, music, books, journals, internet, computers, tech stuff, gadgets * sound tripping, singing, playing musical instruments (I know guitar and flute recorder, I just wish I can play them well), watching movie with a tub of popcorn drizzled with melted butter (yum!), reading * observing, pondering, reflecting, learning * laughing or making people laugh (though I'm not good at it) and laugh with them, make people smile, or just listen to their stories. Minsan, trip ko lang din mang-asar =p
About Me: I'm a simple, idealistic but down-to-earth, & friendly person. Quiet most of the time, but friendly enough to have a nice talk (or even a hearty laugh) with anyone. "I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. So I live my life in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 NLT
Principles I live by:
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4
"If people talk negatively about you, live in such a way that no one will believe them."
"God is a God of happy endings. If you're not yet happy, it's not yet the end."
"It's not what we know but what we do that counts." -Our Daily Bread
"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." -Dumbledore, Harry Potter 2
"Girls should assume that until a guy expresses interest, they're just friends." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl
"True love doesn't just wait; it plans." -Boy Meets Girl
"Eros will have naked bodies; friendship naked personalities." -C.S. Lewis
"Ideals are like stars; we will not succeed in touching them with our hands but by following them, as the sea faring man in the ocean, we will reach our destiny." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl
