This is such a weird feeling. I just opened my friendster profile this morning through my ipod touch while lying in bed to just check for some new message or comment, and seeing that I've had like 143 views (found it weird), I checked who are those people who took a peep in my profile. There, I saw someone so unexpected. And I'm not able to describe how I felt when I saw it.

Was planning pa nga to do the blogging through the touch kaso medyo mahirap, so I got up pa just to have a record of this unusual event and feeling.

So ano muna yung nakita ko? Well... and "ex" ko lang naman. It was weird because I know, he used to view profiles anonymously, but now it's shown. And another thing that I know someday will happen but still it surprised me is that, bago na ang status nya. Hindi na single, hindi na it's complicated. In a relationship na. And his primary pic? Kasama nya yung girl.

I am not in the mood to go into details na about this weird feeling. Anyway, I can't describe it. I might be writing about it some other time. I just probably want to keep a record of this sudden surge of indescribable emotion. But I'm perfectly fine.

Maybe I felt a little envious because he has already found his new companion. Just maybe. Because maybe I just don't want to admit it to myself. I suddenly felt like I've lost in a competition. But before any of you my friends there react to what I've just mentioned, I want you to know that I completely know I shouldn't be feeling like this. But I was just being real. I was just saying what I feel but I'm not doing anything to nurse it so no harm done, okay?

For some part of me, I am happy for him. No pretentions, or bitterness, whatsoever. What I've just said is genuinely meant. And I wish them both happiness. I wish that the guy who once was very special to me has become a better person. A better man. And in that case, the girl is really blessed. Since this is a wish, I wouldn't be looking in its opposite side. I want to think they will have a happily ever after story.

Pero hindi ko na iwwish na makita na wedding pics naman ang sunod na makita ko no. Unless I have mine posted first. Hehehe.