Shifting Sands

.:: Goldi's Noted Thoughts ::.

Sometimes I believe all the lies
so I can do the things I should despise.
And everyday I am swayed
by whatever is on my mind.

I hear it all depends on my faith
so I'm feeling precarious.
The only problem I have with these
mysteries is they're so mysterious.

And like a consumer I've been thinkin'
if I could just get a bit more...
More than my fifteen minutes of faith,
Then I'd be secure...

My faith is like shifting sand,
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace...
Stand on grace.

I begged You for some proof
for my Thomas eyes to see.
A slithering staff, a leprous hand,
and lions resting lazily.

A glimpse of Your backside glory
on this soaked altar going ablaze.
But You know I've seen so much,
I explained it away...

My faith is like shifting sand
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace

Waters rose as my doubts reign
My sand castle faith have slipped away
I found myself standing on Your grace
It'd been there all the time

My faith is like shifting sand
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace...
Stand on grace.

Life can seem unbearable at times, but don't let it keep you down. Meditate on God's goodness, talk to Him, and know that He hears you. When life knocks you to your knees, you're in a good position to pray.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

A Test of Faith

We had our usual Sunday service as to how it would appear to most people, but we in the team Enoch, the church's worship team, always make it a point that every Sunday would be like a fresh experience because of course, we always aim to give our best for the Lord. What we usually do as a team, since we have this very close ties with each other, closer than a brother/sister but not more than a friend, going out at the end of the day has become a part of our Sundays as a bonding session of the team whenever we still have the time and energy left.

I was having a deep conversation with one of my team mates while waiting for the others to finish their practice when we two decided to go ahead and just wait for the rest of the gang in the mall. We then went outside and waited for a jeep ride to SM Southmall.

We then continued our chat while waiting for a jeep. Then all of a sudden, a motorcycle with two passengers passed on her side causing her to collapse and hit her head on the road's floor. The impact was so strong that I heard a loud thud and I got so nervous at the thought that I might see blood gushing at the back of her head. Fortunately there was no blood, but a big lump appeared at the spot that hit the cement. The motorcyle hit her or her hair got tangled in a part in the motorcycle, or at least that's what I thought, until I noticed that the bag of my mate was missing and saw it was held by the backrider of the motorcycle in his left hand while still glancing at us. They were robbers. They took my friend's bag.

We were not able to spot or remember anything that'll make us recognize the criminals in case we report the incident to the police station for they are so heavily disguised. They were wearing thick biker jackets and motorcycle helmets that covers their whole heads. I wasn't even able to see the motorcycle's plate number, or if it has any, for my full attention was diverted to my seriously injured friend, who obtained a large, very painful lump at the back of her head and bruises in her right arm from the bag that was forcefully slid through her arm. I think she turned a 180 degrees from where she stood because of the impact but again fortunately, there were no broken bones.

We headed back immediately to the church since it was just on the other side of the street. I told them immediately everything that happened and my friend was comforted and given a first aid right away.

I got a little shaky at what I saw. Well, little because I am used at seeing robberies when I was still taking up my engineering studies because it's not an unusual sight in the places I am passing on my way to school, and even within the school vicinity. Our school is situated in a place nested by a community of mostly muslims at the side and at the front was a railroad inhabited by squatters. So you can imagine how dangerous it was. I haven't learned to dress up so much during my engineering days because I don't want to make a nice target for snatchers and hold-uppers. But those were only done by runners or robbers on foot. This one however were done by motorcycle riders, so they're much more difficult to catch and will cause you much damage. I just don't understand why would they still steal when they can afford to buy a motorcyle. And take note, it's the motocross-type.

It was the first time it happened to us, but there have been reported thefts in the place. Our church is alarmed, but all we can do at the moment was to pray for our safety. And I believe that's the best thing that could be done at such situations.

I just started to wonder why such things happen, and to the most unlikely people I can think of, us or to my churchmate at least. They say God have reasons in making things happen and that everything that happens has purpose. But why such a bad thing would happen to someone who devotedly serves Him even if the person is already suffering from a number problems. I said a while ago that this friend of mine and I were having a chat. We're actually talking about the problems she's currently going through.

They say God tests you during difficult times, but I don't want to give my own opinion in it. If God says He's in control, then He is. If there's something questionable to us, we still need to trust Him. Afterall, He's God and He's our Maker. And most of all, He's our Father. I'll just leave it to Him, to let me know when He thinks it would be the right time for me to know. He knows best. We just have to have faith.

Genuine faith stays strong even if deliverance seem distant. for "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him. -James 1:12".

We may not fully understand God's purpose in our difficulty and suffering, but we must not cease to love Him. We must trust Him and hope in Him in spite of the trials that threaten to overwhelm us.

posted by goldiqt @ 9:43 AM
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I don't intend this to be my life's chronicles but I might write some of my experiences here. Even so, everything that's written in here are either products of my excessive contemplation, or just plainly, pure boredom. In any case, I still try to write as sensible as possible, for what I really intend to do and I hope is achieved in every writing, is to impart or share some of the things I learn and sometimes, some struggles in life. Don't expect all seriousness in everything in here though.

In short, this blog is my outlet. My noted thoughts and reflections.

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Name: Goldi

Home: Pasay City, Philippines

Birthday: June 2

Hobbies & Interests: Jesus, music, books, journals, internet, computers, tech stuff, gadgets * sound tripping, singing, playing musical instruments (I know guitar and flute recorder, I just wish I can play them well), watching movie with a tub of popcorn drizzled with melted butter (yum!), reading * observing, pondering, reflecting, learning * laughing or making people laugh (though I'm not good at it) and laugh with them, make people smile, or just listen to their stories. Minsan, trip ko lang din mang-asar =p

About Me: I'm a simple, idealistic but down-to-earth, & friendly person. Quiet most of the time, but friendly enough to have a nice talk (or even a hearty laugh) with anyone. "I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. So I live my life in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 NLT

Principles I live by:

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4

"If people talk negatively about you, live in such a way that no one will believe them."

"God is a God of happy endings. If you're not yet happy, it's not yet the end."

"It's not what we know but what we do that counts." -Our Daily Bread

"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." -Dumbledore, Harry Potter 2

"Girls should assume that until a guy expresses interest, they're just friends." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl

"True love doesn't just wait; it plans." -Boy Meets Girl

"Eros will have naked bodies; friendship naked personalities." -C.S. Lewis

"Ideals are like stars; we will not succeed in touching them with our hands but by following them, as the sea faring man in the ocean, we will reach our destiny." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl

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