.:: Goldi's Noted Thoughts ::.
Sometimes I believe all the lies
so I can do the things I should despise.
And everyday I am swayed
by whatever is on my mind.

I hear it all depends on my faith
so I'm feeling precarious.
The only problem I have with these
mysteries is they're so mysterious.

And like a consumer I've been thinkin'
if I could just get a bit more...
More than my fifteen minutes of faith,
Then I'd be secure...

My faith is like shifting sand,
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace...
Stand on grace.

I begged You for some proof
for my Thomas eyes to see.
A slithering staff, a leprous hand,
and lions resting lazily.

A glimpse of Your backside glory
on this soaked altar going ablaze.
But You know I've seen so much,
I explained it away...

My faith is like shifting sand
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace

Waters rose as my doubts reign
My sand castle faith have slipped away
I found myself standing on Your grace
It'd been there all the time

My faith is like shifting sand
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace...
Stand on grace.

Life can seem unbearable at times, but don't let it keep you down. Meditate on God's goodness, talk to Him, and know that He hears you. When life knocks you to your knees, you're in a good position to pray.
Monday, August 29, 2005
Sleepy Head
I've noticed that I haven't been doing my usual affairs whenever I go online, like bloghopping and blogging, and I know I need not say that anymore. It's very obvious I have ignored the blogging world for such long time or several times now, but it doesn't really mean I've lost my interest. It's just that I usually find myself now sleepy most of the time. This really annoys me because I feel sleepy mostly at the wrong places and at the wrong time. I would really appreciate it if I'd fall asleep the moment my head touches my pillow, after I am done with my "planned" routines before going to sleep. but it's the other way around. I find it hard to get sleep once I'm already lying down in my bed because I'm being stormed with a lot of thoughts or maybe it's just that my eyes won't close. I don't really know. Maybe the fact that i sleep at the time of the day where people are supposed to be awake also adds to the agony. And then comes the time I need to prepare for work, where all people in the house are already getting ready for sleep. It's really so hard to have a graveyard work shift. Ah, the things a person would do just to earn money!

I am not like this before, and it's really ironic that I would be feeling sleepy when all you can think is I should've already adjusted and got used to this kind of waking and sleeping pattern. I should've gotten used to this kind of lifestyle to think that I have been like this for (exactly) 2 years already. Or maybe this is just an effect of a medicine I'm taking, but I don't think I'm taking anything this time. Anyways, I am actually taking advantage of this some time (dahil nga maling oras at lugar ako inaantok), because I used to have sleepless "days" before and it just adds to the stress I get from the pressures of life. To me, sleep is a luxury I can't afford all the time, that's why I grab every opportunity to get some.

It just saddens me that I get to ignore and take for granted the things that I enjoy doing whenever I go online. Blogging, blog hopping, tagging on tagboards, and commenting. Of course I can't comment if I don't read the posts. I have also missed the fun of reading free ebooks online. Well, I guess I would have to choose something that's better for me first this time because it'd not really be good if my health would suffer just because I am feeding my insatiable thirst (read: addiction) for the internet and everything in it. And besides, I only get to do all of these when I'm at work and I am using company resources and it's not really good to do that but it's my way of keeping myself up and wide awake so I should not take my work for granted as well. I am not being payed to blog and surf the net.

Perhaps once I gain enough strength to cope up with such addiction (hehehe =D), I would go back to my old routine, but I'll get it organized by then so as to fit it with my schedule without having my sleep suffer, and some other more important things to do. I have to be responsible for my every action.
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I don't intend this to be my life's chronicles but I might write some of my experiences here. Even so, everything that's written in here are either products of my excessive contemplation, or just plainly, pure boredom. In any case, I still try to write as sensible as possible, for what I really intend to do and I hope is achieved in every writing, is to impart or share some of the things I learn and sometimes, some struggles in life. Don't expect all seriousness in everything in here though.

In short, this blog is my outlet. My noted thoughts and reflections.

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Name: Goldi

Home: Pasay City, Philippines

Birthday: June 2

Hobbies & Interests: Jesus, music, books, journals, internet, computers, tech stuff, gadgets * sound tripping, singing, playing musical instruments (I know guitar and flute recorder, I just wish I can play them well), watching movie with a tub of popcorn drizzled with melted butter (yum!), reading * observing, pondering, reflecting, learning * laughing or making people laugh (though I'm not good at it) and laugh with them, make people smile, or just listen to their stories. Minsan, trip ko lang din mang-asar =p

About Me: I'm a simple, idealistic but down-to-earth, & friendly person. Quiet most of the time, but friendly enough to have a nice talk (or even a hearty laugh) with anyone. "I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. So I live my life in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 NLT

Principles I live by:

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4

"If people talk negatively about you, live in such a way that no one will believe them."

"God is a God of happy endings. If you're not yet happy, it's not yet the end."

"It's not what we know but what we do that counts." -Our Daily Bread

"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." -Dumbledore, Harry Potter 2

"Girls should assume that until a guy expresses interest, they're just friends." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl

"True love doesn't just wait; it plans." -Boy Meets Girl

"Eros will have naked bodies; friendship naked personalities." -C.S. Lewis

"Ideals are like stars; we will not succeed in touching them with our hands but by following them, as the sea faring man in the ocean, we will reach our destiny." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl

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