.:: Goldi's Noted Thoughts ::.
Sometimes I believe all the lies
so I can do the things I should despise.
And everyday I am swayed
by whatever is on my mind.

I hear it all depends on my faith
so I'm feeling precarious.
The only problem I have with these
mysteries is they're so mysterious.

And like a consumer I've been thinkin'
if I could just get a bit more...
More than my fifteen minutes of faith,
Then I'd be secure...

My faith is like shifting sand,
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace...
Stand on grace.

I begged You for some proof
for my Thomas eyes to see.
A slithering staff, a leprous hand,
and lions resting lazily.

A glimpse of Your backside glory
on this soaked altar going ablaze.
But You know I've seen so much,
I explained it away...

My faith is like shifting sand
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace

Waters rose as my doubts reign
My sand castle faith have slipped away
I found myself standing on Your grace
It'd been there all the time

My faith is like shifting sand
changed by every wave...
My faith is like shifting sand
so I stand on grace...
Stand on grace.

Life can seem unbearable at times, but don't let it keep you down. Meditate on God's goodness, talk to Him, and know that He hears you. When life knocks you to your knees, you're in a good position to pray.
Monday, December 13, 2004
Lonely
Aw... this feeling struck me again. I know I'm not supposed to feel like this.. I mean, with all the friends that surrounds me and with Jesus in my life... but this is different. It still helps to confess and admit what you really feel, even if I know very well that I should not be feeling like this, pero iba talaga eh.

What I'm talking about is the "loneliness" that most of us feel. You know. It's when you are surrounded by loving and caring friends and family, and with Jesus Christ in your life, but there is still the longing for "someone" to share your love with... a companion.

We all know that humans were created with that... the instinct to look for a companion. That was the very reason why Eve was created, right? For Adam to have a suitable companion.

I am actually struggling now with this kind of feeling. As a matter of fact, eversince (I don't know when :P). At times, I would just convince myself, "there are other more important things that you should be thinking about" but the feeling just won't go. Though most of the time I find myself sound with the love Christ is giving me, there are still times that I can't help but think, "why do I feel so alone? Is there someone that God has created for me?" or "Is there a guy that would quench this thirst for a companion of mine? If so, when will I meet him?" That was just a thought, but that doesn't mean I'm growing impatient about it, and that that's all that is going about my mind. Well, I at least hope I won't come to that time that I'd become impatient. If God calls me to be single, I hope and pray that God will give me the inner peace and acceptance of that fact. May God's will prevail. Have faith.

My faith is like shifting sand, changed by every wave.. so I stand on grace. (words from the song "Shifting Sand" by Caedmon's Call)
posted by goldiqt @ 1:44 AM

2 Comment(s):

Naisip ko lang after reading your blog =)

When I read Joshua Harris' 1st two books, it is saying that it is all right being single unless you are already prepared for a lifetime commitment.

Tanda

By Anonymous Anonymous, at December 15, 2004 12:06 AM  
   

yes.. you're right about that Tanda. Kaya lang kasi, no matter how you thought of that, there are just times na unexplainable ang having a feeling of loneliness, diba? Parang ninsan, bigla na lang syang sasagi sa isip mo. And hindi naman natin maalis sa tin yun kasi nga, we're designed to feel like that. Alam mo, me nabasa ulit akong book, yung Passion and Purity ni elisabeth elliot, ang ganda ng pagkaka-explain nya on that topic. Sabi sa book, since it is normal for us to feel like that, there's no point of suppressing such feeling. what we ought to learn is the mastery of it. Hindi yan mawawala, but we can do something about it. We can offer it to our Lord Jesus Christ who said "Cast all your cares upon me". It is something we can offer to our Lord Jesus christ, and He can use such feeling in His own way. All we need to do is trust and have faith. Try the book, ang ganda. :)

By Blogger goldiqt, at December 16, 2004 9:31 PM  
     

 

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I don't intend this to be my life's chronicles but I might write some of my experiences here. Even so, everything that's written in here are either products of my excessive contemplation, or just plainly, pure boredom. In any case, I still try to write as sensible as possible, for what I really intend to do and I hope is achieved in every writing, is to impart or share some of the things I learn and sometimes, some struggles in life. Don't expect all seriousness in everything in here though.

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Home: Pasay City, Philippines

Birthday: June 2

Hobbies & Interests: Jesus, music, books, journals, internet, computers, tech stuff, gadgets * sound tripping, singing, playing musical instruments (I know guitar and flute recorder, I just wish I can play them well), watching movie with a tub of popcorn drizzled with melted butter (yum!), reading * observing, pondering, reflecting, learning * laughing or making people laugh (though I'm not good at it) and laugh with them, make people smile, or just listen to their stories. Minsan, trip ko lang din mang-asar =p

About Me: I'm a simple, idealistic but down-to-earth, & friendly person. Quiet most of the time, but friendly enough to have a nice talk (or even a hearty laugh) with anyone. "I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. So I live my life in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 NLT

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"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4

"If people talk negatively about you, live in such a way that no one will believe them."

"God is a God of happy endings. If you're not yet happy, it's not yet the end."

"It's not what we know but what we do that counts." -Our Daily Bread

"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities." -Dumbledore, Harry Potter 2

"Girls should assume that until a guy expresses interest, they're just friends." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl

"True love doesn't just wait; it plans." -Boy Meets Girl

"Eros will have naked bodies; friendship naked personalities." -C.S. Lewis

"Ideals are like stars; we will not succeed in touching them with our hands but by following them, as the sea faring man in the ocean, we will reach our destiny." -J. Harris, Boy Meets Girl

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